A video created by my mom,
Keeps the memories strong.
Reminding me of how strong I really am.
Standing outside my house
The morning of my surgery,
Butterflies swarming my insides
The reality hits me
I stand next to my dad.
In the hospital,
Smiling and laughing,
The velum swarming my blood stream,
My thoughts incoherent
The butterflies disappear.
Under the mask,
Out one second
Awake the next.
Time hadn’t shifted for me.
My dad,
My security blanket,
The only thing I wanted to see.
Keeping the smile on my face,
Sleep enfolds me
each time the button is pushed.
Pain controls,
Makes sleep unbearable.
Morphine takes it all away.
Family all around me,
Sister, mom, and dad
Smiling down at me,
Giving me support.
Out of my room,
Outside on the roof lookout
Of the city,
Feeling the sun on my face,
Felt like I’d never felt it before.
Standing for the first time,
My mom and dad next to me,
The whole way.
The time there
In the hospital room
Has changed me
Into something better.
Seeing how I used to be.
Tears roll down my cheeks
Collect in the corner of my smile.
Old feelings,
Pounding their way out of me
As I watch my past go by.