{"id":4321,"date":"2013-12-16T12:47:25","date_gmt":"2013-12-16T20:47:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/howlheritage.com\/?p=4321"},"modified":"2013-12-16T12:47:49","modified_gmt":"2013-12-16T20:47:49","slug":"butterflies-by-alicia-pfaff","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/howlheritage.com\/?p=4321","title":{"rendered":"BUTTERFLIES by Alicia Pfaff"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"768\" height=\"432\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/ZKs-jj507Zk?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>A video created by my mom,<\/p>\n<p>Keeps the memories strong.<\/p>\n<p>Reminding me of how strong I really am.<\/p>\n<p><!--more--><\/p>\n<p>Standing outside my house<\/p>\n<p>The morning of my surgery,<\/p>\n<p>Butterflies swarming my insides<\/p>\n<p>The reality hits me<\/p>\n<p>I stand next to my dad.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>In the hospital,<\/p>\n<p>Smiling and laughing,<\/p>\n<p>The velum swarming my blood stream,<\/p>\n<p>My thoughts incoherent<\/p>\n<p>The butterflies disappear.<\/p>\n<p>Under the mask,<\/p>\n<p>Out one second<\/p>\n<p>Awake the next.<\/p>\n<p>Time hadn\u2019t shifted for me.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>My dad,<\/p>\n<p>My security blanket,<\/p>\n<p>The only thing I wanted to see.<\/p>\n<p>Keeping the smile on my face,<\/p>\n<p>Sleep enfolds me<\/p>\n<p><span class=\"GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark\" id=\"477eae43-0346-4ef7-a7a7-3a1216e617e1\"><span class=\"GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark\" id=\"54132c0c-3315-4739-8a1a-b20d84864939\">each<\/span><\/span> time the button is pushed.<\/p>\n<p>Pain <span class=\"GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark\" id=\"47a28198-128e-495d-a63a-f205bc6cc044\"><span class=\"GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark\" id=\"5cd2b4bb-8ee2-4f52-932a-0d664650504b\">controls<\/span><\/span>,<\/p>\n<p>Makes sleep unbearable.<\/p>\n<p>Morphine takes it all away.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Family\u00a0<span class=\"GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark\" id=\"46006b69-c93e-4561-9158-0742b4cec55d\">all<\/span><span class=\"GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark\" id=\"46006b69-c93e-4561-9158-0742b4cec55d\"><\/span><span class=\"GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark\" id=\"46006b69-c93e-4561-9158-0742b4cec55d\"> around\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0me,<\/p>\n<p>Sister, mom, and dad<\/p>\n<p>Smiling down at me,<\/p>\n<p>Giving me \u00a0support.<\/p>\n<p>Out of my room,<\/p>\n<p>Outside on the roof lookout<\/p>\n<p>Of the city,<\/p>\n<p>Feeling the sun on my face,<\/p>\n<p>Felt like I\u2019d never felt it before.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Standing for the first time,<\/p>\n<p>My mom and dad next to me,<\/p>\n<p><span class=\"GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark\" id=\"3acd0ebb-b20b-4fee-a3ba-ae0ebaf0eeb4\">The<\/span> whole way.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>The time there<\/p>\n<p><span class=\"GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark\" id=\"53ab5313-13d3-49bc-9a78-ff140ec9a307\">In<\/span> the hospital room<\/p>\n<p>Has changed me<\/p>\n<p>Into something better.<\/p>\n<p>Seeing how I used to be.<\/p>\n<p>Tears roll down my cheeks<\/p>\n<p>Collect in\u00a0the corner of my smile.<\/p>\n<p>Old feelings,<\/p>\n<p>Pounding their way out of me<\/p>\n<p>As I watch my past go by.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>A video created by my mom, Keeps the memories strong. Reminding me of how strong I really am.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4321","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-video"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/howlheritage.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4321","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/howlheritage.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/howlheritage.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/howlheritage.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/howlheritage.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4321"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/howlheritage.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4321\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4326,"href":"https:\/\/howlheritage.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4321\/revisions\/4326"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/howlheritage.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4321"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/howlheritage.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4321"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/howlheritage.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4321"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}